So Hello weeks later!

oy! where oh where have we been? funny thing, time. ugh. ayaaaa. ok, so as much as i would lovelovelove to tell you of my ventures for the time i haven't written, i am just gonna be like i am sometimes. ima tell it to you beat up and from around the bush. BREATH. ok:

hello school. not goodbye, but until then family and friends and home. i know not if im losing or gaining weight? schoolschoolschool. deep talks and lovin' em. music oliver the flace! iss cray-c! school laundry mat. walking in on a guy playing the piano. awesome guy, but no where near the greatness of thee mendyling. he's writing a musical and he let me and carmen listen to the project in the making. this guy has some talent eh carmen? he asks carmen and me to be in his musical. we'll see what happens ;) ohm, late for class! nope, made it. "hey! it's the bubbly genius!" haha. missed the career services lady! hmph. another day. dinnatime! hey! let's hit the den! sweet! ha connie! eat dirt! i win. (= haha jk. but i did end up victorious. ohpa! is that the tieme? later gators! that end.

i listened, loved and discussed. thanks once again. i can always depend on your for a great listen. to me, recommended music, your myspace for good music or movies, messages, talks, my heart..
thanks you. you know.. i st

if i had that chance to, i would. but im better than that. MUCH better than that. huh.. difficult being this way sometimes, isnt it? but then again, im hoping im not fooling myself. tell me, am i being strong or subconsciously weak? perhaps, perhaps not. moving on.

poli sci? lit. poli sci? lit. psych? fish show. poli sci? nie. i think not anymore. LIT. BIG. PSCYCH. SMALL. done deal.

hey! it's great finally talking to you after a short bit! i've missed you! please keep in touch. merced is wonderful, but i don't want to be one of those people who has to be missed. i mean, miss me, but not because we haven't talked, only not seen. fimmie? sorry, you're great though.

i don't knoooow! why would you do that and be ok with it? i listened to a message just yesterday about how "men and women of God" do something horrible or distasteful, shrug their shoulders then look up to Him and say "What?". Sigh. I'm learning everyday and my heart is there, but what kind of daughter of God am I being by looking at you, when the only one i should have eyes on is myself to judge. So, if i want to look at myself, i must look to Him. you know?

Gah, stop it. stop it stop it.

Man, so there's con con, carmen, me and the boys. What else do i need right? but, but =( con con and carmen want out.. howuh.. ultimately not my decision of course, i want what they want and what's best for them. they will just be loved and missed of course. (=

my mind is unconsciously fixated...

I know, i know. What person would write such things right? Well, me of course. I told you, sometimes i'll put some pretty random or profound things on here. this is my breather or public diary. but, i think that's kind of an oxymoron, cause diary is meant to be private, soo... public tribute. (= one day, excellent thoughts and ideas with meaning will be in print, i promise. Until then! God bless!

Jonie