So Hello weeks later!

oy! where oh where have we been? funny thing, time. ugh. ayaaaa. ok, so as much as i would lovelovelove to tell you of my ventures for the time i haven't written, i am just gonna be like i am sometimes. ima tell it to you beat up and from around the bush. BREATH. ok:

hello school. not goodbye, but until then family and friends and home. i know not if im losing or gaining weight? schoolschoolschool. deep talks and lovin' em. music oliver the flace! iss cray-c! school laundry mat. walking in on a guy playing the piano. awesome guy, but no where near the greatness of thee mendyling. he's writing a musical and he let me and carmen listen to the project in the making. this guy has some talent eh carmen? he asks carmen and me to be in his musical. we'll see what happens ;) ohm, late for class! nope, made it. "hey! it's the bubbly genius!" haha. missed the career services lady! hmph. another day. dinnatime! hey! let's hit the den! sweet! ha connie! eat dirt! i win. (= haha jk. but i did end up victorious. ohpa! is that the tieme? later gators! that end.

i listened, loved and discussed. thanks once again. i can always depend on your for a great listen. to me, recommended music, your myspace for good music or movies, messages, talks, my heart..
thanks you. you know.. i st

if i had that chance to, i would. but im better than that. MUCH better than that. huh.. difficult being this way sometimes, isnt it? but then again, im hoping im not fooling myself. tell me, am i being strong or subconsciously weak? perhaps, perhaps not. moving on.

poli sci? lit. poli sci? lit. psych? fish show. poli sci? nie. i think not anymore. LIT. BIG. PSCYCH. SMALL. done deal.

hey! it's great finally talking to you after a short bit! i've missed you! please keep in touch. merced is wonderful, but i don't want to be one of those people who has to be missed. i mean, miss me, but not because we haven't talked, only not seen. fimmie? sorry, you're great though.

i don't knoooow! why would you do that and be ok with it? i listened to a message just yesterday about how "men and women of God" do something horrible or distasteful, shrug their shoulders then look up to Him and say "What?". Sigh. I'm learning everyday and my heart is there, but what kind of daughter of God am I being by looking at you, when the only one i should have eyes on is myself to judge. So, if i want to look at myself, i must look to Him. you know?

Gah, stop it. stop it stop it.

Man, so there's con con, carmen, me and the boys. What else do i need right? but, but =( con con and carmen want out.. howuh.. ultimately not my decision of course, i want what they want and what's best for them. they will just be loved and missed of course. (=

my mind is unconsciously fixated...

I know, i know. What person would write such things right? Well, me of course. I told you, sometimes i'll put some pretty random or profound things on here. this is my breather or public diary. but, i think that's kind of an oxymoron, cause diary is meant to be private, soo... public tribute. (= one day, excellent thoughts and ideas with meaning will be in print, i promise. Until then! God bless!

Jonie

So this is it..

blink. last 1st day of high school. blink. lunch lost, then found. blink. eon cafe jammin. blink. senior movie night. blink. suprise. blink. char's coti. blink. vegas, ate ven's wedding. blink. auntie linda. blink. walks. blink. solo competition. blink. 40709. blink. spring break. blink. confirmation. blink. night rally. blink. happy birthday. blink. choir. blink. once on this island. blink. senior picnic. blink. senior fashion show. blink. senior breakfast. blink. hey you. blink. porgy & bess opera. blink. senior prom. blink. prom queen. blink. graduation. blink. ehspits. blink. ics. blink. park. blink. the end. blink. summer continues. blink. weekend warriors and me. blink. cull canyon. blink. beyonce. blink. gabe, passion and leejay. blink. occasional talks. blink. toga. blink. one tree hill. blink. khd reunion. blink. the move. blink. college..

and here we are. amazing how time passes. but of course, we all know that. so many memories.. i admit, i unadmittedly took some of them for granted. that is what i take for granted. that, and not holding on just a little longer.. cheers. here's to the beginning.. until then.. God Bless

Jonie

So I got my wisdom tooth pulled out...

and im feelin' the pain na. =X haha. its not TOO bad, considering i only got one tooth removed. but nonetheless, its pain haha. mostly in my throat. it just hurts when i swallow. my gum is constantly bleeding, so ive sadly trained myself to just swallow it since ive run out of gauzes. =P yucky. i think im a little whacked out cause im also swallowing whatever medication they put in my gum haha. my cheeks are big as they are, but now my right cheek is bloated haha. dude, i had about 9-10 shots. yes. i counted. that was the only pinch i felt though. i didnt feel anything after the first shot. the extraction of my tooth was quick. i didnt even know they popped that sucker out. he asked me if i wanted to keep it after he showed me, but i told him he could have it. (= i got stitchesss! coowell! i was kindof hoping to fall asleep, not only cause im lazy, but because it seems pretty sthweet! anyway, i was pretty juiced about this little surgery. but hey, at least jesse got a route canal the day before me right?

but before all thaaat, i spent the morning with the lovely michael rosendo del rio, mendy ling and maria isabel macasieb! fabaless! we laughed over the stove, making french toooast (which yizz and rosey never made before. cuhraz-z-zay) and feasted at the delrio table! we reminisced about old memories and had "epic" talks and attempted to sing karaoke in the living room, but failed... So we did it in rosey's room! :D we played typing games, which i failed at. poo. and looked at pics of michael rosendo del rio and his family and friends (i was in some pics! yee) and O.M.G. if you guys have never tried a voice changer before, DO IT! i don't think i've laughed that hard in a very long time. it was priceless. i now know how i sound if i had a sex change. 0_0 i would show you, but i know not how to put the videos on my cpu from my phooone! darn you technologyyy! anyway, after we laughed,chuckled,giggled and snorted over our voices, we actually sang the way we should've haha. aaah good times.. good times.. of course, all great things must come to an end. so we said our "laters" since it's never "goodbye"...

until then readers... God Bless

Jonie

So I'm back from YAR..

and I am just so behind on my blogs again! haha. and i just can't sleeeep. but i just.. man, you just had to be there.. Imagine feeling incredible and everything wonderful.. combine it, and multiply that by 239733 etc. haha thats about how im feeling right now.. I mean ok! you gotta know!

When it gets tough and you feel like you can't go on, and the world just pushes you to your knees- it is at that time when you are in the perfect position to pray. There is nothing more fulfilling than a life centered on a loving, prayerful relationship with Christ. Everything else is just fleeting, temporary, finite.. Know, that you are beautiful, even if the world says you arent, even if you don't believe you are, even when you fail, you are beautiful. And GOD LOVES YOU! Amazingly! Unfathomably! And so many wonderful, indescribable emotions that, at the moment, i cannot put words to!

Retreat.. At times.. Is just what we need. To retreat.. Even when we don't know it, or feel like it. Escape from this materialistic, "busy", harsh world sometimes people! You need to! Take the time to just be with Him.. Because HE is all you need. Let me ask you.. When you become a slave to "things".. then what? Where will you be when all those "things" become obsolete? When you have God, Christ, Lord Jesus with you, "things" no longer enslave you. And it is THEN when you can be free! And I could go on and on and on on on o ononoonononoonon, but you just HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO experience this love to begin to understand the feeling.. He's working through me and through millions upon billions of people and things for you to feel it. To love.. Until then.. Just LOVE LOVE LOVE! Like Jesus proclaimed, The Beatles spoke and said, "ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE" and GOD IS LOVE.

well, its about that time.. Until then! God Bless!

Jonie

So it goes a little somethin' like this...

base. snare.. base base. snare.. base. snare.. base base. snare.. yeuh. uh uh uh. yo my name is jbreezy and STOP. you know i had you goin. pretty catchy huh? haha dont lie to yoself. *eyebrow raises.* anywaaay. HIYOOO! how are y'all doin today? how was your day? great? fantastic? did it go as planned? does anything ever? well, if you'd like to share, do tell. (= im all eyes. and ears, if you have my number haha. hmm todaaay.. i recorded some jam sessions with my boy eddie today! yee. finally. haha. of course not the last. next week again bro? hit me uppp. japes and phyllis dropped in too! what a treat! :D we were all spontaneous. it was boss. i do miss those days though. just jammin it up on random days.. those were good times. i needa make more. new ones! woot! the days before my first day of college are coming to a close. i just recently discovered that I am only starting the day after arroyo does. yeesh! August 25th to be exact. er, for me. im leaving earlier though for my sister. shes starting school about a week earlier than i. psh, shoo. i caynt leave that girl alone though na! she's like the underbelly of my heart beat. but don't tell her i said that. (; i dont want her to think shes cool. haha well, next time again all! until then! God bless!

Jonie

So i've been slippin' already...

i made this blogger thang and i've already missed days haha. what can i say about the past few days anyway? well.. i'll just start with monday. =P

So monday:
Merced again. visited sister's schoolio and it was hot again. yack. i wonder when it gets cold there? hmm.. anywho. silly jesse was a walk-in appointment, so she waited for a good hour or so. but because i was with her, i waited too. eeep. i got bored waiting inside after she was with her counselor, so i bounced and was sketching outside. i was so in the game, but then there was this old guy who kept smoking and staring, so i walked around the building and went to the other side. =( scary.. Then, we went out to have some thai food. yumm and drove back home! yup! mondaaay.

Then tuesday:
Khd reuniooon! man.. i can't tell you how awesome those kids are. haha i mean despite the name "khd", its my friends. of course. haha. i dont know why they keep saying that yesterday was our very last get together. i guess before we all leave? er rather, all go our seperate ways. haha sorry. but, looking back.. all i can say is. "goood timmesss" hahaha. they know what im talkin' bout. well, we started off the day late but that was all good. but i just find it funny how we NEVER know what to do. we never have plans. haha which is a good and bad thang. well not necessarily bad because- well it's good because we can be spontaneous and just roll with the wave, and when we have nothing to do, we end up just sitting around thinking about what to do and all the while wasting time. But you see, i don't really count it as wasting time because im still WITH them yknow? i mean that was the purpose of us getting together in the first place. just being with each other. but hey, thats just me. haha. anywho, we met up with nico and lola at stoneridge and coasted from there. haha lola cracked me up. she mosdef has not seen us in a long time. first thang i think of "You lost weight! walang babyfat!" haha. well, after chillin' with her a bet, we hit up a couple of spots, hnm, ifod sto. good stuff. haha ugh! we looked at my ugly id and we put em all together. i think tim had the nicest one. i know not, but anyway. cheesecake factory was next. man i need a job. haha. we got the awesome round table for 8 under "cassandra" (charlene) and shared like 5 baskets of bread and were served by RACHEL! ooh! haha. sum it up: toast, food, nikko's late entrance which i made fashionable, jynxs, failed attempt at games and hollering, coughing, jordans bday and fun. haha later that day, we chilled at chartards hass, and ended up stuffing ourselves with television and jackinthecrack. so much for homemade tacos and burritos. lamers. but uhm, we had some good talks that night and mohnin. and i just.. im gonna miss them. its funny how everytime i see them, i say "its only 2 hrs!".. but, thinking about it now.. those 2 hours, i wont be seeing a lot of people. but i can't be sad. i won't be. im not! haha but i will miss everyone. i remember like it was just yesterday, we adopted bobbatundae, may he RIP. haha and strolling under the stars at marina. crashing ashcatchum's partay. taking pictures in front of chars house. lunches. middle school. high school. good times. bad times. all the time. my khders.. aww, we had a great run guys. i love you..



well, hopefully i can try and keep up with this bad boy. haha. until then.. God bless

Jonie

So,

I was watching "Horton Hears a Who" a little bit ago, (that little, fluffy yellow sheep thing is so cute!) and yesterday I watched "Cars" and "The Incredibles". I want to meet the person who created stuff like pixar animated kind of movies. And I just realized I have a bruise on my elbow. Hmm.. Anyway, I was kindof thinking about just not doing this blog thang anymore, but then I decided to keep doing it. (= I have a feeling i'm going to end up putting some pretty profound stuff on some days, and just, preeetty random stuff too. Either way, its goin up. Like a One Take Session. Yee. Well, sorry i dont have interesting stuff to express to you, but I hope you keep reading. Until then, thanks guys! God bless

Jonie